Mine have been well out in force this past week! You know the one’s i mean….those uncontrollable thoughts that leave you casting doubt on your abilities and goals. The ones that help you to make excuses for ‘why you can’t do it’ and try and convince you it’s all justified. The thoughts that leave you feeling doubtful, fearful, resentful, anxious and all round negative.
Yes, i’ve felt all of those this past week. I recently committed to entering the Birmingham Velo that takes place in September this year. It’s a 100 mile cycle ride across the roads of Birmingham, Worcestershire and Herefordshire, a big one day event with 15000 cyclists taking part.
The problem is i’m not a cyclist and i’m scared stiff of being on the roads! I might be fit but I’m definitely not cycling fit or 100 mile fit! I can ride a bike yes, but not a road bike, with those way too low handle bars that give you back ache and those painfully thin saddles that give you bum ache! Let’s not forget those shoes either that clip you onto the bike, a bike that feels like it could be knocked over with a feather along with you on it. Yes, i am well outside of my comfort zone on this one!
So having calmed my mind monkeys a little i got to it. Each time I went out for a ride I always felt sick in the stomach beforehand. I never felt relaxed, but i pushed through and progress was steady, with me managing a not bad 32 miles at a reasonable pace.
This time last week I was back from a lovely holiday and ready to get back in the saddle…..but I had a bad first ride back.Terrible knee pains just a few miles in that just wouldn’t go away, resulting in lots of stop starts and an eventual cut short ride home.
That was it, the mind monkeys came out in force again. Only this time i couldn’t seem to push them away. In the proceeding days I’d convinced myself that; I was too old to do this cycling lark and my body couldn’t cope. I was telling myself it wasn’t a safe thing to do anyway, riding on those roads and I shouldn’t be risking it. Ultimately, it didn’t really matter if I didn’t do the event, it’s no big deal is it? I knew deep none of this was true, and it did matter to me, but it took me a few days to realise it. In those few days the frustration and negative feelings definitely spilt over into my daily life, compounding them further, leaving me anxious, snappy, lost and unable to focus until I eventually took control of my thoughts and feelings and sought the help I needed to get back on track. I didn’t want to give up, but I knew I couldn’t do it on my own. Giving in, I knew wasn’t the answer and would make me feel worse. So, I asked for help from someone who had experience of cycling, experience of the roads, the routes and could teach me how to be better and get a better technique. Once i’d done this, shared my feelings and concerns it suddenly felt achievable and I’ve gone from strength to strength from there on. I’ve still got a long way to go, but I’m chipping away week by week, and that feels good!
It doesn’t matter who you are or where you’re starting from, your mind monkeys will rear their ugly heads at some point. Don’t let your fears, excuses, anxieties, and bad days hold you back from what you want to achieve with your health and fitness goals.
You CAN do this, and feel happy on the inside and with what looks back at you in the mirror. Don’t let your nagging doubts hold you back from your TRUE POTENTIAL.
Make your goals realistic by breaking them down first into achievable small chunks.
Ask for help!
If you don’t know where to start, are feeling overwhelmed and can’t control your mind monkey’s hit reply now to book a telephone or Skype call, and and we’ll make a plan together.
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